auromparis

2009-08-02T01:57:00.001+08:00

HEY!
i've move to http://auromparis.livejournal.com/

2009-08-01T18:35:00.001+08:00

Not too good a day.
Everything is going back to square.
But ts okay for tomorrow is gonna be a better day. Next week gonna be eventful too.
Slowly, i would get out of these nonsense.
I hope it rains tonight.

2009-07-30T18:20:00.000+08:00

i wanna blog but blogger is being such a slut and i can't do anything about it.
i'm thinking of changing to live journal.
problem now is, i find LJ really complicating and i need time to get used to it.
i nearly gone mad just by trying to figure out how to change the background of live journal in class today.
till then.

2009-07-12T02:12:00.000+08:00

真的不知道因该这么办。who can help and save me? i give you money. ):

2009-07-11T01:30:00.001+08:00

I am in the pit of my entire 19 years life.
never felt so down before.
for i know i have no one no nothing.

jiayou.

love, ling

2009-07-10T21:13:00.001+08:00

Oprah wrote this about men…

1. If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
2. If he doesn’t want you, nothing can make him stay.
3. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
4. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
5. Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that’s not meant to be.
6. Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
7. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can’t “be friends”.
8. A friend wouldn’t mistreat a friend. Don’t settle.
9. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
10. Don’t stay because you think “it will get better”.
11. You’ll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.
12. The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
13. Avoid men who’ve got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.
14. He didn’t marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?
15. Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
16. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.
17. If something bothers you, speak up.
18. Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.
19. You cannot change a man’s behavior. Change comes from within.
20. Don’t EVER make him feel he is more important than you are…even if he has more education or in a better job.
21. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
22. Never let a man define who you are.
23. Never borrow someone else’s man.
24. If he cheated with you, he’ll cheat on you.
25. A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
26. All men are NOT dogs.
27. You should not be the one doing all the bending…compromise is a two way street.
28. You need time to heal between relationships. There is nothing cute about baggage… Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.
29. You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you… a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals… look for someone complimentary. ..not supplementary.
30. Dating is fun…even if he doesn’t turn out to be Mr. Right.
31. Make him miss you sometimes… when a man always know where you are, and you’re always readily available to him – he takes it for granted.
32. Never move into his mother’s house.
33. Never co-sign for a man.
34. Don’t fully commit to a man who doesn’t give you everything that you need.
35. Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

Had recently found an inspiring blog which i think kinda make me health conscious -Fay Hokulani
Quote:

“You see, life is never forever, and things come only once.
You don’t know how long you’ll get to keep things,
and you’ll never know how long you’ll get to live.
But as long as you know you’ve got something in your life you love
and cherish so much, make the best of it.

Because one day,
when you least expect it,
you could lose the most important thing in your life
you set your whole future for.
Take care of things while they’re still small,
and most of all take much care of the people you love.
Because one day,
it just might be too late to take care of anything.”

love.
ling

2009-07-06T15:06:00.004+08:00

It was a beautiful sunday night.

(5/7)
The weather is cool and chilling after the heavy rain.
and the city is embraced with the lights from the other families.
i especially love weather like this ♥
the long walk home seems the most enjoyable.

& before that met up with 2 irritating people over at vivo.

As usual, my sunday morning is filled with 20000 messages.
& most of the time all the messages are nonsense.
& almost all the time, the messages are from choomin and jacylnseeyuanting.
(oh choomin said we should call me min fro tht day onwards)
anyway, decided to meet up with jacyln over at vivo to buy hoola hoop. ♥
called ~~choo~~ min and she decided to come down meet us too.
Thus me and jacyln decided to chill at ToyRus before ~~choo~~min arrival.
and i saw this super cute bear that i want for my birthday♥

and it is super hugee!!

play around with the hoola hoop and found this magical green thing that allow me to hit jacyln till i happy.

but unfortunately while she ran, she found another one and we fought for 15 min.
was panting after that. hahahahha!
and our ~~choo~~ min finally came thus went carl junior for the beef fries! xD
took damn long to decide actually but finally settle down.
and stupid beef fries out of stock!
-.-
Talk about RP H1N1 and ~~choo~~ min got afriad of me.
shop around after that (:

went for chicken soup and home!
oh oh! and we bought bestfriends neckalces too!
hahah like stupid

met up the next day for movie - land of the lost
like super super super funny!!!
today - met up again.

BYE! ♥

2009-07-05T00:00:00.003+08:00

star,
you had been insensitive for 2 years already.
& friday what i saw was really getting on my nerves.
you chose them over us and lie.
heartbreaking and very very irritating.
but it somehow made me reflect back on everything.
how stupid i am and how weak-willed and soft hearted i had been. worth a laugh.
and it really spolit my mood for the rest of the day though.
& there are times that i really hate you but short tempered i am, it went away shortly.
but somehow, i know there should be a limit, if i am able to really let it go. people change.
why should i allow myself to go through this?
3 donts
dont care
dont ask
dont bother.
bye.

2009-07-02T23:20:00.003+08:00

You know there are time you feel like you had done enough yet wasn't appreciated and you ask yourself why are you even trying? You feel like your life will continue this way and die yet no one even give a damn. Every day every night is the same old routine.

I'm feeling like this now. There are people who treat you with all those sweet words only when you are needed for a favor return. After that, they can survive weeks and months without contact. You are of no use to them already. Its a general aspect and i am not pinpointing to anyone.

& i realise it had been difficult for be to be as sociable as i once be. i dun want to.
hahah... just a random thought (:

anyway, take care Jasper, i believe H1N1 wont bring you down. (:

2009-06-25T18:05:00.005+08:00

School -> FYP -> Report -> Poster
As everyone knows, RP had 9 cases of H1N1.
All my friends who envy me: mind you school is still on for year 2 and 3.
and my FYP is driving me mad with an unreasonable self-appointed leader. (:
with totally zero teamwork and super dominant and draft a poster that don't look like poster.
A poster which people would not understand upon reading because it is too damn brief.
verbal war with him for the whole morning and in the end meet up at staircase to settle once and for all. however, he is not someone that can talk peacefully and team find it hard to communicate with him. so we end up argueing
Told Junliang about it via sms and he say:
"Ask him not to be stupid he is not year 1 or 2"

totally agree.
make me so angry the whole day that i shiver in class.
and mind you, the entire team doesn't like your poster although you insist PI accepted it.
motherfucker

In addtion, i am so angry with myself, i went school for like twice this week and once last week.
Totally still in holiday mood.
Gotta learn to force myself up already.
went swimming with jacyln yesterday (thurs) and dinner at ajisen! like finally.
but my initial plaaning of polo tee hunting fail. Cant seems to find one in my favourite shade of color.

Skip FYP meeting on wednesday due to my everlasting cough.
due to the H1N1 cases, Rp are taking cough and flu seriously.
i scared. :x (it is not an excuse)
was woke by irritating smses by jacyln and junliang.
(most of the impt people in my life have "J" as their name initial)
went transformer with Junliang, Wilson and Munhow over at vivo liek super last minute.

the company was great. The movie is total nonsense.
It is too draggy and the duration of the movie nearly hits 3hours.
All the robots look almost the same, thus when they fight, its like a whole lump of metal moving.
and i think the movie is totally power ranger wanna be.
But cxindy say its nice. haha DPDP.
but both tv and radio rated transformer 1 star and comment it as
"rubbish" and "mega boring"

Dinner over at carl junior and they are funnny xD
chill outside vivo at the sea area when its raining and home.

Monday went swiming with choomin and jacyln.
and it poured so i only swim 10 laps.

heart talk at Mc and i ate 2 Mcflurry. :/

heh ehh heh glutton. (:

Sunday was fathers' day = family day.

Went for the Life is a beach party over at sentosa with jacyln and miaoning last saturday.
Siloso beach itself is very crowded with sexy sexy people <3
We went over at the evening when the crowd wasn't really there yet.
Been long since i had hit the beach.
The smoothing sound of the water hitting the shore and the sunset changing everything into an organge country. it was indeed a getaway from the usual busy schedule.
And the yellowish light makes it super romantic to take pictures. (:

Chill around the beach and irritating Jacyln kick sand into my eyes.
i swear at every single moment when i was sitting down facing the shore, my brain was asking me to jump into the water. but i didn;t bring change of clothes. ):
Delifrance for dinner and i uper love their cream of mushroom.

Went over to the rock band concert.
atmosphere wasn't that bad.
crowd got better at night.

And this is my ultimate eye candy of the night from band AVA.

friday met up with lynnette.
chill around in school. (:

BYE!
says the 4 face monster

2009-06-17T14:07:00.001+08:00

anyway on that day i publish my previous post,
i finish my whole damn report with 4200+ words.
AYEAH!
Dr willy had look through it and after changing the tenses it is officially done! xD
& this week is my UT week with 289371 UT that still does not really make any sense to me.
and i got to leave my house in 10 min time or will be late for LB UT.
i think i am prepared for it. (:

a spastic picture of me and bestf.

and see my bling phone.
and i bling my keys too!
awesome or what.

hahahahahhaha totally blog for the sake of blogging.
BYE! IM LATE!

2009-06-10T19:32:00.002+08:00

Ever since....

edmund, junliang and i went airport attempting do report yet are insufficient plugs thus took last train to junliang house last saturday and sunday. and i manage to finish 1/2 of the report!

I HAD NOT TOUCH MY REPORT AFTER THAT AND ITS DUE ON FRIDAY!
BUT I GOT TOTALLY NO MOLTIVATION TO DO.

PLEASE MOLTIVATE ME! ):!

2009-06-10T01:17:00.002+08:00

you know you know !
i had been busy with life but i somehow felt that they are so not worth to blog about.
because i felt like i am waiting for days to pass.
thus even when the outing was really fun, its just another way of pasting my life away.
cause i am not happy within! nor do i know what i am doing anymore!

& my facebook quiz just interpret that i am worried and stressed. -.-
so tanweiling-like. boohoohoo

and i am getting paranoid paranoid paranoid but i just keep quiet.
cause i know what changes had already been changed and what not meant to be won't change for you in 1000 light years time.
and first time i felt regretful over a big deal.

and and and i feel that i have no friends!
i duno why but like really no friends to turn to.

like a walking zombie, you make me laugh then i laugh for you to see.
cause super no point. and sometimes when i laugh i feel like crying.
lol potential mental case.

please let me find back my life though the closest had already drift.
and i feel like playing majong while eating ajisen NOW.

bye.
big tree

2009-05-17T15:20:00.002+08:00

Babies!
i realised it was long since i had a decent post.
cause tanweiling is sad/confuse and SUPER BUSY (& lazy)
anyway will do soon alright.

and and and,
I FREAKING PLAYED BADMINTON IN FRONT OF THE MRT ENTRANCE YESTERDAY!

yes, i can see my friends running away from me alr.

xoxo

2009-05-11T23:21:00.002+08:00

almost everyone i know understand that i am a person who think too much.
and most of the time, what i thought never even exist in the first place.
and my way of thinking is never positive.
thus, i am causing double the sadness i should even have.
thus sometimes, i keep my thoughts within myself cause i am afraid these might just be other unnecessary thoughts which i would not want to share.
plus knowing that not all people express out their opinion, make me keep thoughts to myself more then i ever would.

but today jasper betray me!! ):

i know its for my own good lah but i nearly got a heartattack!
but forgiven cause chu fa dian bu huai.

ARGHHHHH!!!

2009-05-05T09:49:00.003+08:00

somehow, i felt really tired of what ever i had endure in for so long.
deep in my heart, i know its not possible and i have doubts since there is someone totally trying to break everything up.
somehow, its like a never ending story, a bottom pit and i trip upon something at the wrong time and totally fell into it.
it goes on and goes, how to get out? i know shit about that.
time went by and unnecessary nonsenses comes in and things turn more and more complicated.
i duno how this gonna drag. i tried stopping i cant.
really had enough, very tiring. dammit

brain block i don't know how to continue my meeting later on.

and ONGJUNLIANG your friends are driving me mad.
and i have nothing to do with anything.

2009-05-01T23:02:00.002+08:00

WEILING MADE A LOT OF FRIENDS LAST MONTH! (:

it makes me happier cause i have a lot people talking to me in msn now and i don't have spare time to think about some sad stuffs.
but actually deep down i know i still can;t get over it but i will try hard to.

and i still hate people that ignores me!

2009-04-27T20:54:00.012+08:00

Yay! I survived my first week of year 3 in RP!
heh heh heh. ♥

week 1 had been super chaotic as both break and meeting time had been shorten!
resulting in no break cause had to rush presentation!
classes are good. team mates are awesome! (:
and tutoring after school and fypee. as busy as a bee!
anyway, this week was really stress due to not enough sleep and so many personal stuffs going on. i hope i will pull through it. :/

weekend was literally awesome.
went for yixiang & yiyang birthday chalet.
(i know i havent blog about jabez chalet and some other outhings cause i very lazy)
was initially kinda scared as i almost dunno anyone there.
especially when people started to come in and the atmosphere get real tense. :/
imagine around 20+ people you dunno a shit about under one roof.
and there are very few girls and they are mostly talking about soccer.
but things only get better overtime. (:

anyway, i am in charge of the camera so i got walk around to snap pictures.

get to know 3 myanmar girls who ain't very chatty. =x

weepeng, the chef of the day.

so, jeremy and zepeng came at a later time and chalet starts to get more fun
as they are more friendly then some others

NUM singlets lovers.

i like my face a lot in this picture!
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH! (:

birthday cake... (:
after sing-sang-sung the birthday song.
people started to smash cakes at the birthday boys.
if i am not wrong wee peng was damn on and started to come out with plan and stuff.
and people become afriad of getting cake on them and some on i become their representative.
yixiang was made to wear the new boxer they gave before he got smash.
yiyang wash up for dunno how any times! and got smash again and again!
ROFLalalalalalaaa~

grace went off at 9 and i kind of stay over because yixiang say he will confirm company me.
(which he didn't i will tell you why later)
rent majong at night! (:
damn awesome favourite past time.
most of the people are upstair watching soccer via hp.
and the often shouting of "GOAL!" really jerk everyone up.
2/10 of the people actually saw the ball goal.
others just shout accordingly. -.-

anyway, majong is the best time of the weekend lol.
and i won a lot of times.
and one china guy say i confirm cannot play and he didn't win at all.

anyway, i met this girl call judy.
she is damn nice. (: and luckily she stayed with me. x3

somehow when the sky dims, population of cockroaches increase dramatically.
freaking eerie.
jeremy screamed like a girl and judy is actually the one who chase the cockroach in the end.
what fuck.

tgh with judy, went public toliet to bathe.
way back was horrifying cause we saw like 15 cockroaches at such a short journey
and screamed ten thousands time.
was sweating like mad as we ran back to chalet.
i dunno what is the point of bathing. seriously.

went over to cheers with judy, yixiang, yiyang, weemeng and jeremy and bought like quite a few bottles of vodka.
carried the ajong table upstair for the aircon and ctn majong and poker.
everyone got really hyper due to the alchoholic drinks.
and somehow i keep showing the number wrongly although i know what is the tile. :/
and they keep saying i clubber i dunno why. dan sad.
jry, yy, judy, zepeng were playing poker and drank as punishment.
suprisingly, jeremy lose 7 in a row and although i help him drink 1/2 of his punishment, he still become drunk.
and he started to become an irritating asshole that talk to himself lol.
and he keep asking for rematch yada yada and bite my finger. lol.
i wanted to slap him sia cause very noisy. eh wait i did. (:

at the meanwhile, downstairs was super happening.
a group of like 10 guys is forcing yixiang to drink and he stupidly follow and drank one whole new bottle of vodka and literally become a very scary person.
but very funny to see him get bully LOL.
his friends talk damn funny!
i get water for him and he drunk it thus his friend get plain vodka for him and he foolishly believe its plain water too. in the end he kind of can't differentiate vodka from water.
his friend still get 4 numbers from him when he got really drunk.

in the end, he vomited around the house, hug the toliet bowl, vomited the whole toliet and his friends throw him at the lawn. lol.
cause keep vomiting very irritating.
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAAH! (:
its kinda funny when you see a group of guys washing the toliet together.

some of us was trying to pour water on him to clean him up at like 5am.
and jeremy at this point of time keep coming down and ask for one more player in his "revenge" cause he don;t believe he will lose that much.
drunkard. -____________-
most of his friend went home in the middle of the night.
wanted to sleep but yy, jry and zepeng slept on 2 beds in a triangle. -.-
so slept on the floor.
heard that jeremy went down to vomit in the middle of the night.
and the guys started to question him a lot of questions which he answered ROFL.

(sia la why the post so long-.-)
breakfast in the morning and went escape due to free tickets. lol.
ask for a girl number cause i lond of lose in daring. -.-
however it rained and all the rides are stop. \m/
went haunted house which was scary cause we scared ourselves.
went over to e hub for arcade.
pool plan was canceled cause the auntie only acept ic and think that ezlink card age are fake. :/
all of them there are like 20+ lah. -.- except me cause i am forever young.

jeremy

judy

zepeng

(i am getting pissed in blogging. this is like my longest post ever?)

went back to chalet cause the weather turn irritatingly hot.
heard funny stories of their life is SP.
papaya story, ban mian girl, sentosa. :D:D:D
damn funny i swear!!!
i laughed till i cry! ROFL
dinner and cab home. (:

zepeng is the china guy i mention. ROFL.
although all the guys there are fucking tall like 180cm +
he is tallest cause china food special. hahahahhahaha! (:
i damn basket.

in the end, i didnt went school today. -.-
SIA LA SECOND WEEK ONLY! ):

and i had a bad dream today, my heartache like torn into pieces and i woke up crying.
till now, i can still not quite sure if it's only a dream. it seems so real :/

xoxo

me is happy (: for now

2009-04-26T23:38:00.003+08:00

hello babies.
at this point of time, weiling is HAPPPPYY. (:

just came back from chalet, made lots of new friends and the people there are damn funny!
like you can hear tanweiling laughters every other 2 minutes or so.
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA! (:

and i didn't really broad over those unhappy things.
and i finally went to the haunted house in escape and Junliang just reminded me to watch harper's island. (:
will blog about it soon yep. (:
anyway,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YIXIANG & YIYANG

& MY BROTHER! ♥

i love you people many many! ♥♥♥

really really!
xoxo.

2009-04-23T22:33:00.004+08:00

): me sad.
): me cannot control thinking.
): me very affected.
): me want cry.
): me duno what to do.
): me feel that no one is by my side.
): me feel that you don't care.
): me don't wana care anymore.
): cause me really very very very upset and disappointed!

sighs. when will these be over.

edited:had calmed down. i think i had enough. i am so tired of everything. really.

2009-04-23T10:40:00.002+08:00

having my lab management now i dunno anyone in the class except Ian but he don't want to talk to me! HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH!
and wusong in my team too. ROFL.
i am lonely cause i tends to be a lil shy around new people ):
it's okay i will pull it through! (:

edit: hahaha i love the class the team so funny!

anyway, this week had been a terrible one.
bad stuffs happen one after another and my schedule is tight with school. fyp, tutoring and other commitments.
thus now,
i don't dare to talk to that particular bestf and am super upset,
i am even more upset about my brother case which somehow there is nothing i could do to help,
my student need serious help,
and i am super stress about ____________
not forgeting the *something something* is arriving soon and so many to do!
bad.
real bad.

ya i know i am a pessimist.
i hate it too. =/
and i am super affected.
i am a pessimist i am a pessimist i am a pessimist i am a pessimist i am a pessimist i am a pessimist i am a pessimist i am a pessimist i am a pessimist i am a pessimist i am a pessimist i am a pessimist i am a pessimist i am a pessimist i am a pessimist i am a pessimist i am a pessimist.

sighs, die lah weiling.
i need a getaway.

lol damn emo post. but i am not really emo now. just super stress can cry. right?
i think i should stop talking to myself now.
heh 6P 6P!

2009-04-20T21:22:00.002+08:00

year 3 semester 1 day 1 went well.
friends making went well and class seems cheery.
i spent the whole day in class doing reseaches and powerpoint.
very stressing. so much to do so little time and i got teammates that disappeared for the whole break. well :/
its gonna be another busy week.

i can't catch up, i slow down my steps
& tell myself, girl you need to find another alternative.

i'll pull through.

2009-04-20T00:19:00.002+08:00

i feel so foolish.
i had been in my comfort zone for too long because of bad encounters that i had.
i thought you will understand but i was wrong. it was not even your fault cause i myself feel unable to understand you either. you had always bottle up about your opinions and stuff and i thought what i did seems okay to you but i was wrong and maybe its my fault for not able to understand the situation. ):

you said i am pessimist, i know i am.
i understand how terrible it feels more then you do and it suck like hell to the extent that sometimes i think i have depression. but i can't stop my way of thinking. i dun want it this way too.
you said i am not understanding.
i tried to think in your shoes, i think its true cause i really dun't know what you thinking. sorry.
you said i will say "why you lidat" if you refuse.
i say it for the sake of saying i really don't mean it. ): i thought you knew cause i didn't force you.
guess its my own thinking again.

so many elses, so many misunderstanding, guess i had already made so many mistakes since i knew you and i don't even know that. i feel so foolish. why didn't i just get it? more like making a fool of myself. maybe changes is good for you or maybe you didn't change, for i should really be the one changing. your words hurt especially from a friend so dear. maybe i should really start thinking about myself. you know i am pessimist and will cry but you were harsh thus you really mean it and something is very wrong with me.

i duno what to think anymore.
ling.

2009-04-13T22:44:00.006+08:00

& I am going to be happier today than a bird with a french fry ♥

*heeheehaahaahohoho! *

My Good Friday started early. (thus it ain't that good after all)
met up with jacyln at my house void deck and off to choo's house for the super early good friday party. it was actually more of a christian gathering but jacyln and me went there only for the food. =/ cause got nuggets. i like.
as usual we alight the wrong stop again as we are too engross in our talking.
results in us being late =/
played games with the group of more then 10 people.
watch narnia which aparently was my first time watching.
and i think it was awesome (:
if that super pestering weird guy name daniel ain't there, bet we will enjoy the movie more.
screw you,you are dam childish.
and don't call me jade seah cause you suck.
hahahahhahaa.

the punishment for losing the game >D
and had fooood x3

everything ended, everyone went off, send jacyln off to mrt.
and went back to choo's house.
played around with her stuff/ stop her from sleeping (but she still manage to sleep in the end)
and simpsons till evening time.

look at her table, full of notes about bible phrases =/

bus over to airport for popeye. timothy came along.

damn nice. i love the airport. :D:D:D
lets go there again. (:

anyway, went swimming with jacyln aft tution today.
and apparently they came to my house themselves without askinging again.
i think my house like hotel who want come dun ned ask. -.-
and i feel damn insecure with bareface to face the damn world.
and we wore the same shirt!!
ayeah.
okay i am real tired. and i think i yawned 2 trillion times today.

xoxo.

2009-04-08T20:17:00.003+08:00

& the truth is i am getting more and more impatient/bad tempered/paranoid recently.
in addition, i am stress up and fuck up and my life is practically screw up.
sighs. ): yah i know this ain't reason for my behavior now.
continue to be an emoshit and i can assure all my friends will leave me and i am going to die alone. ):
DIE WEILING DIE DIE.
you are a mean and insignificant girl...
BUT BUT BUT BUT BUT
please don't hate me okay. ):
cause i need friends more then ever now...
i promise i will try to be okay and better person. please. please. please.

& i feel super useless and insignificant.
i want to be in control of my life but whenever i try i realize my grip of my own life loosen up more. and now i dont know what else i can do.
and why my heart is forever the one that take control of this whole life.
please learn to grow up and be stronger.

and i am now getting pissed with ONG JUN LIANG
who will often ignore me cause he think it is fun.
i always try to laugh it off but i feel insignificant within.
Ignoring is not funny cause it is fucking getting on my nerves & it makes me feel bad and very sad EVERY single time. and friend don't make friends feel bad? especially when it is my best guy friend? well ._. dont lidat can.

anyway a brief post about my damn packed week.
good friday was super happening for me. (party/popeye/airport)
will blog about it next post.

thursday met up with lynn over at amk.
met CXINDY while having lunch. dam irritating rofl
walk around and went over to hougang to rebond my hair before school reopen.
lynn highlighted her hair too.
Trim ends till my hair dam short now but i going extend soon.
hahaahhaa...
choomin say my hair macam all year round different ahha.

monday.
cancel tution cause i am very very lazy ROFL.
copany jacyln to bugis cause apparently, she heard from 987fm that a "David" is having a autograph session over there. according toher, he sound humbe and shy.
Thus as a typical-singapore-100%-kpo, jacyln mademe companyher to see the so call David.
and it turns out to be David Archuleta and i LOVE him.
hahahahahhaha!

However, there ain't many people there.
thus jacyln went over to ask the people in charges and realise the damn event is on tuesday which is the next day.
-____________________-
so i basically went over to bugis to see David poster. \m/

i want to kill her. but she seems very fancinating by herself.
-.-
did shopping till the shop close and i am the last customer ROFL.
and the shop assistant had to even fold my tons of clothes that i tried but didnt buy.
cause i tried like 10 but only bought 2 shirts. =/

during the way home, 2 china guys were damn fancinated by the tracks.
and keep looking and staring like scared e will miss out anything. -.-

last saturday & sunday.
went sungai rengit (msia) with Junliang and Edmund for seafood.
went over by boat and the trip was awesome cause it was very breezy.
we started to name parts of the ocean too.
Arrived cab over lunch was suerb with crabs sharkfin and all.
And the damn mussell J ordered is damn fucking disgusting.
hich apparently we almost didnt touch the whole plate.

went over to hotel after that.

this is the so call mussell which look like fish eyeballs that is pull out of socket and have veins hanging out.
however, E sae it looks more like fortues.
=/
ugly and not tasty.
suck to be you.

were practically fooling around/DS-ed/PSP-ed/Drawing around till later time.
E started talking rubbish about kamasutra lol.
because apparently,sungai rengit have nothing entertaining except for their seafood.
and the heat there is able to fry an egg.

dinner at another restaurant which is way better.
walk around the so call city area and walk a distance to their night market.
more or less the same as singapore only that their stuffs are cheap to the extent that i dont dare to buy. imagine 3 jeans for 10RM. what fuck.
but the malay kuey there damn tradional.

went over to the seaside/playground.
chitchat fool around take emo pictures haha.
went to tabao nonsense food and back to hotel.

oh and did i mention that our hotel is those shared toliet shared living room shared kitchen.
the hotels there kind of rundown.
and thanks J for waiting for e outside to bath.
cause it is qing ming jie and its damn late. in addition, if got strangers go and wanna peek inside he can actually see you bathe lah. -.- cause of the damn gap on top of the door.
so were practically drinking singing psp-ing talking for a striaght 5 hours before sleeping.

resulting in:
i have problem wakingthem up the next morning but got to check out by 12 noon.
pack, lunch and went over to the jetty.
waited 3 hours for the boat -.-
boat ride as usual was fun though it is raining and the boat is damn crowded.
pull up the curtains for the view outside talk till dam happy when...

THE WATER SPLASH UP AND GOT J WET
HILARIOUS.
CAUSE ITS NOT JUST WET, IT IS DRIPPING WET!!
AHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

make me laugh for like 10min. good tummy exercise.
after a while J told me that the uncle beside him is soaked by sea water too!!

AHHAHAHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHH
laugh another 10min and we have to hide our head outside the curtai to talk because the wife is only in front of us. HAHAHAHAHAHHA.
sneakly, we made attempts to take the picture of the uncle.
damn mean i know but funy leh.

and he was sleeping lah then wake up wet alr. :D:Dhad dinner and went home.

its a fun trip full of laughters i love J & E!!
xoxoxoxoox

okay i not angry with ONG JUN LIANG alr.
rofl i damn no use.

im missing out something in life

2009-03-31T23:31:00.003+08:00

I'm the textbook definition of a rebel
To me life ain't fun unless you're in a good fight ♥

words to describe my tuesday.
i had a nonsensical & sporty day!
inclusive of laughters, jokes and lots and lots of laughters. (:
i woke up with handover that hits every part of my head.
and with 32186382 sms and calls in the morning that interrupt my sleep.
and i remember i keep trying to go back to sleep because i want to continue my dream which apparently forgot what it is about. hahahahas.

and i eventually woke up at 4pm.
and met jacyln syt to swim.
fun fun. ♥
cause apparently i walk also faster then jacyln when she swim.
she basically go there and float. hahaha.

see the picture i took before she reaches my house - with teeth.
haah actually i took a lot but since no make up for swimming most of them turns out fugly.
and i think this picture funny cause smile damn fake!
hahahaha. i hate my teeth! >)

and i swam 30 laps (: like a fishh...
went dinner over at hougang mall and fool around with my damn cool camera function.
gotta take some time before i am over it. =/
hahaha... like first time come hougang.

when for ice cream after that.
nice flavour suuperb. like AWESOME. :D

walk home joke around.
simple & meaningful.
i love my bestf!

xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

events.

2009-03-29T18:18:00.006+08:00

I'll keep you my dirty little secret,
my dirty little secret. ♥

i start off this post with a funny picture which always makes me go ROFL when i see it.
hahaha. cute right!
that is junliangg whom anyhow shake so that i can take gif picture! retarded moments.
and omgg, multiple shots is like my favourite function in my phone now.
because it can be made into gif pictures and set as the new msn display picture!
hahaha... and it cures boredom more effectively then just single shot!
teehee! so lets do it more often okay okay!
anyway, it had been quite an eventful week.
its actually kind of tiring to go out everyday and sometimes would hope for a nice day at home to rest and just laze around. (:

met up with lynnette over at marina square on saturday.
went over to thaiexpress for their very nice kuey teow while lynn ordered her very spicy thai curry which can actually spice the hell outta someone just by a table spoonful of the gravy.
thus, after finish only half a bowl, she ordered keoy teow too. =/
went for movie after that. (:

confession of a shopaholic ♥
thumbs up. its very good. (:

friday. went over to geylang to kind of look around with Junliang and Edmund.
first time there and was super looking forward to it.
sad that michelle cant join. ): went over for dinner before walking around with Edmund as the tourguide.
in short - guys there are mostly ah peks which give out tiko stares.
girls are mostly porsitutes which are either disgustingly old china woman or young and pretty.
there are indian pors too. =/ with sari.
its a whole new experience.
and geylang are 10000 temples around. rofl.
and edmund's rule is that we should walk fast and i should always hold hands with them or else got trouble. hahah i forgot his reason as apparently i had heard 10000 rules from him since a month ago and i only remember a few. :D:D:D
cause he make the whole trip macam going war lidat. =/

anyway it had been usually empty there later at night as there are polices all around.
and 3 of us got our ic copy down too. =/
luckily nothing much happen after that.
cab over to tampines, mac, crap,chat till 11+ and bus home. (:

thursday. met Junliang afte his FYP to reformat our laptop.
As the whole process usually took 2+ 3 hours,
kind of slack around with Junliang's friends, Wilson and co.
Did a lot of self-entertaining stuff and even papapapapon-ed. :D
found a super cool/scary game in his psp. gruesome.

and i met the super nonsense rafiq too!
which i hadn't gave him his birthday present! hahaha....

company Junliang over to badminton court to see the 100k bottles proj.
its an eye-opener and it actually works like a lullaby to me =/
anyway the reformating drag for a few more hours and IT helpdesk is very very not efficient.
They totolly fogot about Junliang's laptop until 4 hours later.
and since it is near closing time, they simply restore it which i can also do it myself.
they even swap the C drive and D drive which seems a bit =/
so they want him to go back again and still dare ask for rating of service.
well.... =/

bus over to meet michelle over over at kovan.
finally since school holiday!
but the nasi lemak shop was close. ):
thus went over to grab anything edible cause were all very hungry.

were eating halfway when Junliang suddenly exclaimed that the chicken wing is bigger then the plate itself which is damn funny.
and michelle eat laksa till very kuazhang splash here and there.
and she shiver when she hold chopsticks. :D:D:D
hahahah.... and Junliang finally had his tuo huey.

chill around till Michelle mother came.
went to 7-11 buy some stuff and bus home with JL.

wednesday. meet up with bestfriends for dinner after tutoring.
♥♥♥♥
crap and laughters everywhere and choomin was telling us about toliets and insects from her yun nan trip when we are having dinner.
the table beside us also cannot take it. -.-
maggots, cockroaches, shit.... how to eat you tell me.
went over to cotton on to try on the same shirt for 10 times cause i can't decide on the color. =/
went over for snow ice.:D:D:D

journey home is super nonsense. AHHAHAAH
was practically dragging choomin to our house and not let her take mrt home.
HAHAHHAHA and we made it.
lovelove. ♥

next week gonna be another busy week. =/

one will become stronger after being hurt for some times.
as scars will be all over and one will be numb.
and learn to not trust again.

anyway, i hope everyone will be as blessful as a RAINBOW
(:

xoxo,
ling

2009-03-29T00:22:00.003+08:00

& ling is on the verge of giving up on the most important in her life currently.
but again, there isn't much hope since the beginning.
no matter how persistent or how hard i try,
what doesn't belong will never belongs to you and if it does, no one else will ever take it away.
through many of upsetting moments, i felt that i had grown stronger and more mature over the years. i have heard friends telling me that.
it wasn't easy. one thing poly teaches me is the cruelty of people and we should never give total trust to anyone except ourselves.
what you gives is never equivalent to what you receive.
whether it is worth it depends on how much love and concern you had for your friends and the special someone.
however, we always get hurt and cry over people whom we love yet never cares for us. vice versa. its like as if someone made it this way, someone toying with us.
i do not want to continue wiping off my own tears every night and say "ling, be strong"
and feel the heart aching literally and brain seems to have its own thinking.
i know moments like this can't be avoid in life but i don't know how to handle it.
i wonder if i will ever learn to.
i want to keep myself busy. (:

xoxo,
ling.

my favourite person in this entire world.

2009-03-24T12:48:00.004+08:00

The first step to getting the things you want out of life is this:
Decide what you want. ♥

good things takes time & effort.
it does not come by easily. (:

i'm starting to miss school already.
holiday is good but 10 weeks is a drag...
outing-tution-FYP-outing. everything is so standardize its already like a routine.
being out all the time also causes contribution of cash to the society in an expeditious rate.
i need more mooolaahhhhh ;D can can can ?
im so broke!! and i need to save up like 100bucks for the trip to some island for seafood
by next weekend?
hahahaha, learn to save save save save~ ;)
and i am almost packed for the rest of the days till school reopen -.-
vexed.

night time are always the best cause i get to watch my simpsons.
addiction leh.

niwaes, i just had my birthday and i am 19 already! :)
had mini celebrations with several groups of people.
but no pictures =/ except for the day itself which i spend with bestf.
oh dad bought me F480 for my birthday. ;)
wo hen ai ta!
<3

went to sing with jacyln on my birthday.
i was god damn tired cause i had to woke up early that day.
have fun over there and J kind of eat up the whole bowl of crackers while asking me if i want for 5 times. ;o stay till quite late and went for japanese pasta. chill around went to plaza sing and home. (: anyway thanks J for the gifts i love it and i am wearing it now. ♥
peaktures. ;)

& J's friend john is scary =/
next day, went over to chomp chomp for dinner with
JunLiang, Lynnette, Edmund, Jabez and Willie.
met babe up first to chill around before the others came.
food wasn't as nice as it used to be and seems to us that 85 food is way better.
so most went home after dinner cause its kinda late.
went over AMK hub for movie with JL & E.
streetsfighter ;) and chunli is hot.
all in all, its niceeee...

i think i have STM cause i forgot most of the outings.
HAHAHAHAHA.
oh sometime back but dont know when.
went for bloody valentine 3D with JL & E.
gruesome with lots and lots of suspense.
i only watch that cause its 3D but i didn't even wear the damn 3D glasses in the end=/
instead i gave JL so that he can have double effects.
okay, nonsense ;D
and E was already chanting beside me and curling up like a baby.
hahahah and i kept talking to E like an irritating asshole to distract ourselves from the show so to be exact only JL was watching :D
went over to JL's crib after that after meetin up with Lynnette and Thana.
majong-ed (: alltimefavourite.

i am finally going to meet up with Mich on thursday ♥
i am finally oing to geylang (explode) with JL & E on friday ♥
and maybe going for steamboat on sat ♥ yida's treat.

AH BUDGET! and i skip fyp today cause raining and its nice to sleep in. ;p
but i promise to go back school 2 times next week and do double work!!!
teeheeee!

xoxo, ling

2009-03-21T23:47:00.002+08:00

Day 2 - Materials Analysis (A394) @ E65B-C
Day 1 - Biosensor Technology and Biomedical Devices (A342) @ E65P-C
Day 4 - Stem Cell and Tissue Engineering (A341) @ E65G-C
Day 3 - Laboratory Management (A301) @ E65R-C

i still cant understand why must the principal of RP change the whole system.
and now everyone have to change their classes everyday.
what is this?
and for my lab management class i only know ian which i rarely talk to.
): scared ehh.

ya i know i had been complaining last sem, the sem before last etc...
oh well=/
i think i go junliang class find him everyday alr. -.-

but my class got KONG MING and WU SONG leh!
hahahahahahaahah! awesome.
anyway i got so much to blog aboutttt....
but... =/

loves, xoxo,
ling.

hahahahahahahahahhahaha WU SONG LEH!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA

2009-03-19T00:25:00.003+08:00

i had a bad day since morning =/
sighs... when will these ever go away. ):
bad day... bad.

pass 12, anyway happy birthday to me.

2009-03-15T00:48:00.001+08:00

ROT, BLOG ROT!

ya will update soon. byeee
xoxo

2009-03-08T00:32:00.001+08:00

my head is spinning spinning spinning spinning spinning spinning spinning spinning spinning spinning spinning spinning spinning spinning spinning spinning spinning spinning spinning spinning spinning spinning spinning spinning spinning spinning spinning spinning spinning spinning spinning spinning spinning spinning spinning spinning and i just vomited -.-

i think a bug live in me.

2009-03-07T02:18:00.004+08:00

look up the star; look how they shine for you. ♥

i'm like going to update my week now.
holiday to this point had been hectic/chaotic/tiring & lots and lots of fun. ♥
monday - wednesday are the usual days for tution and FYP.
student did well for her science test and parent wanted me to teach another subject
which is of course a good news to me as it means an increase of extra income.
nothing feels better then an extra income rolling in.
even a mere $30 bucks increase means a lot in a long run.
so i was practically smiling my way out of the house. (:
teeeeheeee ♥

FYP went well too. everything's under good control.
but filling of tubes is a strenuous task.
cause it give you cross eyes and cause tube-phobia!
and i burned myself with hot hardener T.T
but but i think i am damn assiduous as i stay till the lab closes and went home with chengwei cause my team member all went off already.

thursday starts off bad with 23982 messages received when i was still sleeping.
to being things to another level of irritation,
people still reply my message when i already claim that i am
1) sleeping &
2) ask them not to reply &
3) dont message me alr.
yes jacyln see yuan ting is the source of irritant.

met miaoning and jacyln over at plaza sing for dinner before heading to arena.
we reach quite early to chill and drink.
chitchat/camwhore(with hp somemore pathetic)and mess around till the crowd started to come in.

miaoning is my new friend (:
and she is super small in size please.

started with lifeband and DJ bring the fun to the next level.

dance. drink. enjoy life.
just those clubbing stuff. nth much actually.
made a lot of friends though.

met jacyln JC friends (candy,mingliang,tanteck,john) over at clinic too.
went breakfast and jacyln went over to catch up with her peeps.

below are some of the girls we hang around with for a moment. (:
great bunch of people planning a birthday suprise for one of the girls.
with cake and all.
making it happening.i like this picture cause i look happy

today had dinner over at bedok with edmund and junliang.
good food. alchohol. great company.
what more to ask for (:

and i ate damn a lot today.
\m/

kinda pack till the week after next. will update as much as i can.
love you people.
xoxo

2009-03-03T20:56:00.000+08:00

jacyln birthday

2009-03-02T22:17:00.008+08:00

O mggg, it had been a wonderful day.
M akes me go LOLOLOLOLOL all day. (:
A nyway, its jacyln's birthday! ♥
E veryone stand up & cheer "AYEAH HOLLA MAMACOW!"

day started ... early.
-.-
at 11.
thus was super lethargic already before my day even started.
but when i'm tired i become very hyperactive...
but i still hate to go out before 3. ):
so i practically drag myself out of the house door.

went over choo's church to wait for her and it happens to have an event over at the hall.
boring shit. makes me feel like secondary days where the principal is talking at the stage.
works better then 1000 baby's lullaby.
and the christians over there are super enthu and err... into jesus.
and they sing very loud and will cry after singing.
scared me a bit and i felt weird and shock.
its like looking at 300 choomin(minus noise level) in the hall.

went for her cell group meeting after that with all the youths.
was fun and all with the interaction etc as people in the grp are around our ages.
i think i made more than 10 friends today who will call me
"TANWEILING"
though i would most prob forget all of them. lmao.
except for peixian and MR.K who resemble chenglong son.
ROFL!

bus over to douby ghaut with BFFs and peixian (cm's church fren)
haha talk super nonsense and damn loud somemore.
not purposely but it just goes louder and louder. (ya lah inconsiderate i noe)
till the church people dun dare talk to us. =/

went to the grand cathey despise the rain.
and the childish SYT started to splash rainwater on us.
which indicate start of war for morons and retards.
and while struggling, i accidentally kissed a bangala cheek. \m/

-_______________________-
i wanna wash my mouth with dettol.

tabao kfc chicken into cinema.
HAHA SO KUAZHANG.
then caught this movie:
he's just not that into you.
movie was dupe.
will make you go omgg omgg and feel the ouch factor.
jenifer aniston is hot.
brat pitt is dumb to dump her.
the jerk in the movie is hot.
but like i say he is a jerk.
and i want to get marry. ♥♥

walk over to plaza sing again.
water war with toliet water and mineral water.
(ya la inconsiderate i know right so shut up)
choomin was drenched. teheeeewent over cartel to buy cake for syt.
sang birthday song loud loud.
and choomin call the waiter fork accidentally.
HAHAHAHHAA.
.

wanna went swensen for free birthday ice cream but.....
*secret*
went daiso till close.-.-
mrt home (:

went supper with jacyln and walk home together.
saw chye. =/
i have enjoyed myself very much.
xoxo

saturday is stayover!!!

2009-02-28T20:16:00.003+08:00

manual winking + manual open mouth + stick out tongue
= WAH SO CUTE!!
*give ♥♥♥♥♥ like free*

mood had been slightly better.
been through intensive treatment for a sad soul,
which actually means doing things i normally would enjoy + quiet time alone.
with mcflurry, bring you a day nearer to paradise.
happy pill for depression. ♥

but i think my body condition now like shit.
like frequent headache, weakness, flu etc...
and i can feel cold with jacket under the hot sun.
like magic. \m/
die, weiling, die.

so irritating.
i want to be as healthy as a bull dog.
and as smiley as a bird in spring.
in short i wana be a bullbird.
chirpbarkchirpbarkchirpbark.
.
.
.
.
.
.
-.-
ya super nonsensical i know right.

anyway, edmund came over my house yesterday to mix my
desktop which is 89 years old in computer years.
he unscrew everything with the power circuit on then go
"ur motherboard GG alr. can bury your computer alr"
then dad talk to him and wanted to change the whole thing instead of the motherboard.
cause he think the ah pek desktop will die very soon.

met jacyln for gym after edmund depart.
met new people like miaoling and co.
co = i dono her name. :D

gym gym mess around till gym close at 10.
then jacyln teaches us how to bellydance.
HAHAHAHHA DAMN NONSENSE
ROFLOL.

buy mcflurry and went home.
haha gain back all the fats.
then got AH PEK stop his bike behind me and talk to me while i am waiting for the lift.
):
very scary lah!
i only turn around when he oie me 4 times cause i scared. ):
"小姐去excercise啊。小姐很美hor。几时有空，uncle带你去玩"
i keep thinking 玩什么. lol.
then i keep orh orh orh then run home.
cause i scared.
dam no use i know.
and he ming ming is AH PEK loh. call himself uncle.
EEeeEEeEe! AH PEK! EEEeEeeeeEEE

met lynn over at somerset today. (:
to shop for syt birthday present.
and my muscle ache like ouchhhh...
went heeren for dinner ♥
and lynn dun dare to look at one of the guys working there.
lol damn irritating.
cause if she saw shuai ge she will practically stare for 10sec before she is conscious again.
super obvious. HAHHAHAHA.

then went over cineleisure look for her bf. -.-
left at 6+ cause she need to babysit.
suppose to meet cxindy and co but muscle ache is killing me.

manual winking.

LEE MIN HO

lee min ho marry me!
he is the in korean version of
me ♥♥♥
marry me and i go korea find you!!!

anyway gona be a busy week.
xoxo.

My head is battling with my heart ; My logic has been torn apart

2009-02-26T22:36:00.004+08:00

My head is battling with my heart ;
My logic has been torn apart ❤

pictures are piling up & so many things left untouched.
posts are getting really over-emotional.
no one will ever love a emo elmo blog right?
aiyah, i just post up everything i have here alrights.
cause i dun have extra space in my brain to remember some random outings.
unless i took pictures which kind of remind me of happenings.
especially when i got a planner, i kind of dun give any effort to remember when where and with who.

anyway, recently life is acting like a mean bitch to me.
nothing to be happy about.
yet 1000 things to broad and be upset about.
everything is so meaningless...
can't seems to find joy in anything i do...
thanks to people who tried to make sure i'm okay
while others who make it worst : ha forget it i dnt blame you.
people like jasmin, kokboon, nathan yada yada(list go on),
i will try to get better and sorry i didnt explain myself bt ya...
i jus dun like to talk ... so ya...

but i am disappointed at some others for other stuff...
but ...
nevermind...
aiyah i have no idea what i'm trying to type about.
seems to be getting no way.

aniway, went marina square with jacyln syt on vday
i was late for an hour plus case i woke up at the meeting time.
sighs, ya you can slap me as many time as you want.
sorry for making you wait so long.
and the way you forgive me make me feel so guilty.
lucky mingliang was around to company you.
i love him so much that day can.

going town was a bad choice, everywhere is super crowded.
but i remember i love to look at the couples.
什么样的人真的会和什么样的人在一起. (:
went orchard after that. was to do something over there but i forgot what exactly.
went far east for medicure do some shopping.
don't have mch memory on that though.
oh and i had hk cafe for dinner. (:

i wanna bling my new hp like this. (:

i know i look like a zombie.
was sick that day so ya...
and i got roses for my vday. make me smile.

someday in febuary went tampines mall to meet lynn aft her tution.
i rmb it to be the first outing aft so long so even a simple dinner is fine.
went window shopping around and have dinner. (:
tampines toliet is sper chio and we spend 1/3 of our time over there.
bought magazines and bubbletea over to some void deck.
ketchup ketchp and home.
i think i got STM.

met her the next day over at hougang gym.
was laughing around.
trip to gym was put to good use though.

bath chill around the mall and home.
i think i really got STM.
brain like block -.-

anyway went hougang mall just now case i wanna read fairytales lol.
call up jacyln to company me and she told me she is alr at my hose voiddeck.
lol. i think she teleport there case fly also not as fast.
anyway i know you just want to company me so ya ily.

sushi for dinner and walk arond for my earphone.
and jacyln syt was dancing at the shop music when the shop keeper was laughing behind her.
she say if no money to club we can go there.
haha. funnyshit. (:
went library read 2131 fairytales and went borrow comics after that.
anyway, thanks for wanting to take leave on my birthday bt if can't its okay case you just started you know.
and choomin wanted to come over today to meet me initially.
thanks for taking out time to meet me when i'm down.
i love both of you more than anything. ❤

i eat a lot when im upset.
somemore in the middle of the night.
i think when i recover emotionally,
i will be sad cause i am very fat alr.
rofl.

i want my happily ever after too.

xoxo

2009-02-25T01:18:00.002+08:00

sighs.
i getting so upset over so many things.
just today there are 4 things for me to cry over.
when bad things happen, it come consecutively one after another.
stressstressupsetupsetstressstressupsetupset
stressstressupsetupsetstressstressupsetupset
stressstressupsetupsetstressstressupsetupset
stressstressupsetupsetstressstressupsetupset
i dun want to be a cry baby.
so i should seriously stop.
but i duno how.
can someone make me smile?
im depressed. ):

2009-02-22T00:56:00.003+08:00

from time to time
it had been very disheartening.
i feel bad down inside.
i felt that i am never good enough.
be in friends, r/s, everything that needs to be done or even myself
i always mess up everything.
holiday is stress with so many things to handle.
been to the emotion roller coaster ride.
and im afraid what's in my life couldn't be the worst.

i used to think that i should stay with friends i really trust.
yes, i would do that still.
but i need to stand out of my comfort zone.
maybe i would start going out with anyone who ask instead of declining cause i used to be afraid of those blank moments?
i need to stop disappoint myself and others.

but sometimes how i hope some things would remain forever.
if its even possible.

& i dont believe in forever, not even this whole lifetime.

and i got heartache these few days, like literally heart pain not emotionally.
i think my heart got hole. -.-
i think i will die soon.

will blog when i get the pictures

2009-02-19T20:41:00.003+08:00

even if its best of friends, sometimes i still feel taken for granted.
sometimes, not a simple sorry can solve anything.
its is already worthless.
i have loss count of how many times i heard that over the years.
maybe its because of the amount of time that we know each other,
that's why i always tell myself to not flared up.
but its really tiring, like a fool or maybe even a backup plan.
screw it.

2009-02-16T23:00:00.003+08:00

soprettyandgotdimplesomemore!
victoria's secret model.

HAHA.
im so bored...
i had my first home tution today and i was 45min early.
cause i am damn scared and i actually talk to myself. -.-
but but but it went GREAT. like fucking awesome. ♥
easy money eh. and i am 20 bucks richer.
and i bought 3 hairbands today. \m/
cause i think demure people wear hairbands.
went for a job interview today too. i hope i get the job.
then i can buy more hairbands.
awesome-ness xoxo ♥

anyway, had been busyyyy.
can i sprain my leg again. good job. (:
oh and there is this guy that keep mailing me telling me
when he saw me at gym doing what. freaked me out a bit.
okay im scared cause like got people watching me. -.-
holiday. i need moolahhh~♥
so many things in my wanted list.

oh i realise im afraid that something might happen now.
uhmm.
i think i go play my burger game.
uhmm.
lameshit post i know.
bye xoxo.

2009-02-13T23:05:00.003+08:00

Sometimes When Life Gets Too Nerve-racking,
We Should Learn To Treasure The Simplest Things In Life. ♥

i had get use to it a lil bit better. (: stronger.

i had been hitting the gym twice a week since near end of school.
because i think i look so fat!! ):

EEEEEEEEEEEEYYYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!

sometimes i really want to chop off all those fats on my body like how the butcher chop the pigs to sell. but i scared i will die. so i never. -.-

but my friends tell me that muscles are heavier than fats ehh?
then like that if i exercise a lot, doesn't it make me fatter and heavier?
-.-
bloody hell. what the f is this?
can someone please explain this theory to me????!
fats is the ultimate killer please.

like nonsense but like true leh.
aiyah i also don't know what i want.

so went gym with bffs again.
cause jacyln and i wanna be ~~skinny~~ slimmer.
only choo wanna be healthier. -.-
like as if please. then i grant you health but get fatter when you exercise.
you want meh? you want meh? :p

but going to gym with friends is better then alone.
cause like people got friend to talk to then i felt so lonely.
like no friend girl like that.

and can take picture.
HAHA! IM RUNNING!!

went dinner after that.
choo was telling us that she could only give her first kiss when she get married.
lmao.
like as if its possible.
so we ask her married 烧鸭 better. -.-
not happy still can 剁来吃.

suppose to meet lynnette for gym today but she stomach cramp. ):

and omg i will be starting my first lesson on monday.
bloody hell, im so scared!!! ):

"i kill you"

xoxo

2009-02-12T16:37:00.002+08:00

ayeah! ♥
the tution agency found me a student (:
starting on monday.
but im so scared !
i had never done this before ehhhh!!
and i heard that the primary school science syllabus change a lot.
haha scared the hellll outta me.
but i'm still happy.
♥♥♥♥

xoxo

2009-02-10T19:55:00.000+08:00

原来我中的毒这么深
我自己都不知道。-.-

2009-02-08T01:02:00.002+08:00

AHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH
AHAHAHAHHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHA
AHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
AAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH!
:D:D:D

2009-02-07T20:05:00.007+08:00

zui chi bi - lin jun jie

this song like catchy. listen yep (:
just happen to come across this song on the internet.
"確認過眼神我遇上對的人"

anyway, this week had been kinda eventful. ♥
but im going to be a loner next week.
as most of my loves ain't available.
i am a no-friend person and FYP + exam + work + S.Learning cause me to be like that.
im a non-socialite.

emo emo emo.
haha.
but will have to go with it and be more independent.
but i will miss you people so must 多多陪我 okay!

♥ JunLiang faster come back from cambodia
♥ ChooMin study for your exam
♥ Jacyln please quit your job.
♥ Cxindy please get fat for making too much chocolate! ):

but i am still job hunting. (:
no, actually i plan to give tution and work part time over at Leonard's workplace.

anyway, met up with my gossip girl on Thurs over at vivo city. ♥
i make it a point to be earlier than her cause she is always the one waiting for me.
and i reached earlyyyyy.
went secret recipe for lunch. awesome.

and i went there eat laksa. -.-
waste money i know.

and lynnette finally gotten her planner. (:
but later on that day it happen that she got the wrong one for her friend.
felt apologetic as i was unsure who is the one who gave the wrong order.
might be me.
heard that her friend was very disappointed.
but shirin agree on ordering the right one for her.so ya.

chill around and took random shots.
and when balcony to start decorating her new planner.
people tends to treausre it only when its new. (:
write like damn long then only done with one page.
and wana go home use ruler measure the tabs.
o.0

Jacyln came over to vivo for movie at 7 after having to part with lynnette.

wanted to catch the wedding plan but timing for that suck.
and watch this instead:

it marks the starting of a sin. -.-
damn boring and not at all funny.
1/5 star.

home after that.

Friday met JunLiang and Edmund over at somerset during the evenings.
Dinner and went for movie:damn dope.
i like. the girl like damn hot.
its like a vampire vs werewolf kinda movie and it is not twilight kind of vampire movie.
cause the vams in the movie damn useless.
cannot change into bats and not as charming too.
but the blood scenes make me really gross out.

walk along the orchard road and started to comment on the passer-bys.
haha. damn bitchy i know ♥
and JL was duper high for no reason. make me laugh lol.
walk to PS. and went to a lot of weird corners which people dont normally go to.
supper over JL's "japanese restaurant"
and he wanted to 拿塞包Edmund嘴巴. :O
chill around PS and all took train down to hougang. (:
company company ♥
home lateeee.

oh i wana watch inkheart (:
any takers?

and i seems like the only one that thinks that i cut my fringe too short.
how come!

xoxo,
ling

2009-02-04T00:43:00.002+08:00

went gym with Bffs just now. ♥
diet diet diet!
they came to my house to collect ang bao after that.
and still want me to call my mum to prepare leh.
so got home, bathe, change into spects and walk to jacyln's house.
here is the main point:

SOMEONE!

SOMEONE AMONG THE HDB FLATS THREW EGG AT ME AND CHOOMIN!

AND IT HIT MY LEGS!
and i am damn sure that whoever he is is not aiming for my leg.

angry ):

and its so loud. make us jump. and for the instant, i really thought got bomb.
):

anw i caught bribe war with lynn (:
it was dope.
i wanna get married tooooo ♥

lynn if ur still my fren you gona be one of my bribemaid! ♥

and damn egg thrower ):

xoxo

2009-02-03T02:31:00.001+08:00

read this from parents to child.
can cry all the way you know. ):

To our dear child,

On the day when you see us old, weak and weary,
Have patience and try to understand us.

If we get dirty when eating,
If we can not dress on our own,

Please bear with us and remember the times
We spent feeding and dressing you up.

If, when we speak to you,
We repeat the same things over and over again,
Do not interrupt us. Listen to us.

When you were small,
We had to read to you thousand and one times
The same story until you went to sleep.

When we do not want to have a shower,
Neither shame nor scold us.
Remember when we had to chase you
With your thousand excuses to get you to the shower.

When you see our ignorance on new technologies,
Help us navigate our way through those world wide webs.

We taught you how to do so many things,
To eat the right foods, to dress appropriately,
To fight for your rights.

When at some moment we lose the memory
Or the thread of our conversation,
Let us have the necessary time to remember.

And if we can not, do not become nervous,
As the most important thing is not our conversation,
But surely to be with you and to have you listening to us.

If ever we do not want to eat, do not force us.
We know well when we need to and when not to.
When our tired legs give way
And do not allow us to walk without a cane,

Lend us your hand. The same way we did,
When you first tried your faltering steps.

And when someday we say to you,
That we do not want to live any more. That we want to die.
Do not get angry. Some day you will understand.

Try to understand that our age is not lived but survived.

Some day you will realize that, despite our mistakes,
We always wanted the best thing for you
And we tried to prepare the way for you.

You must not feel sad, angry nor ashamed
For seeing us near you.
Instead, try to understand us and help us
Like we did when you were young.

Help us to walk.
Help us to end our way with love and dignity.
We will pay you by a smile and by the immense love
We have always had for you in our heart.

We love you child,
Mom and Dad

2009-02-01T23:59:00.002+08:00

went JunLiang's house gamble with Lynn & co till dawn.
income = gosong
output = WOOHOOOO!

lose $70 bucks in total to jl & jj.
LMAO.
awesome.

its alright.
cause next year im gona win it all back!
doubleeeeee~♥
ahahahahah.
save up okay people!

& i sprain my leg cause i dance at the badminton court!
cause i thought i won!
ROFL. bimbotic moment.
shouldn't mix around with lynn too much!

okay i wana do my own stuff alr...

xoxo

2009-01-29T23:04:00.002+08:00

I'm your biggest fan
I'll follow you until you love me 
Papa-paparazzi ♥

ARGH i very sad! ):
lynnette lend me her psp to complete the bomberman game.
and im too concentrated in the game till......
THE BATT WENT TOTALLY DEAD!!!
meaning i cant charge with my usb. ):

and no bomberman for me! ):
and its live and death now for me!!
i want to cry alrrrrr!

and if it didn't autosave i would have to beat my highscore in order to continue and it happens that i tried very hard to beat lynnette's inital highscore so i can continue and its stress enough and now my high score is even higher and to beat it might cause me a bed in the hospital due to heartattack cause by the damn game cause i get angry when i can't complete something i want to.

i lead a very sad life i know. ):

anyway, catch up with lynn today with initial plan to job hunt.
but end up in paya lebar doing something different.

yes i went to extend my hair again.
damn lame i know.
but i very vain and its my hair and my money!
(im still so upset about bomberman thing! ): )
lynn do the most kua zhang thing though and i think its a waste of money -.-

she went for eyelash extension.

which happens to be 60bucks and last for only a month.
but results were dope.
SEEEEEEE!

anyway shop around eat very nice chicken shop and home.

argh i wanted to blog nicely but my mood really is like
@!#$%^@#$%^$#@
till then.
tomolo badminton (:

and my favourite song:
1)paparazi
2) boysboysboys
both by lady gaga!!!

xoxo
ling

2009-01-27T18:10:00.002+08:00

i want a puppy. ♥
cancancan??
i want those abondoned and ugly one.
cause they very kelian.
butbutbut like having a dog will change one's live.
maybe when im older and have my own house?

CAUSE MUMMY DUN ALLOW!

):

2009-01-26T23:06:00.002+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL ♥

cny = gamble + eat + take ang bao +gamble.
woohooo i like.
but i only get to draw out one blue note from all the cny incomes.
mummy make it a point to save the others in the bank.
then i can become 富婆 when i grow up
>D

and so far i had taken 3 rounds of steamboat for this cny already.
-.-
very tempting i know. dammit.

today was a family gathering over at materal grandparents place.
with about 50 people over at one small house.
yes damn夸张.
started with majong with coursins which act as a warm up for most of us.
been long since i touch the tiles and i almost how the game goes.
they brought majong cards over too which i had never seen in my entire noob life.
and i think it is fucking lame
cause you can't feel the carving on the cards which is none.

lunch-ed and played around with baby coursin.
3 months damn chubby damn cute.

people practically poke her cheeks till got pimples.
but very cute ♥

she poo on me though (:
voola.
but black jack after that was dope.
a lot of income.
$$$$$$$$$$$$$
lmao. she is my lady of luck.

next round last for 5 hours.
forgotten dinner but free flow of beer.
-.-
but i won money overall.

home late.
ahhhaaa so lame.
but my whole family is a gambling family.
with 10 people on the table at a go and 10 more waiting for their turn.
hahahahahah
ka ching ka ching! ♥

to lynnette junliang edmund leonard and co.
saturdae bring more moolah ok.
i gonna win them all. ♥

xoxo

2009-01-24T23:35:00.002+08:00

MEAN PEOPLE ARE MEAN!
♥♥♥
am watching house bunny again on laptop.
and i think this phrase a bit funny.
ROFL.
in case you didn't notice it's a sticker behind shelly's car.
eh random point only.

anyway,
my super chio planner arrived already! ♥♥♥♥♥♥
and its very prettttayyyy~
meaning it looks 99% like the picture.
dope.

heh heh i'm a happy girl.
don't ask me why i look so unhappy.
i dono cause i am born with that face.

anyway, friday marks the start of my 10 weeks holiday (:
lots to do. lots of plans. lots of outing.
lucky i got my chio planner!! ahahahahhaha!
had been lazy to blog for so many reasons.
and i gona just post up the very few pictures i took over the week.

and and and.
i drop my handphone and it died on me.
voola.
am using lisa's spare phone currently.
dad promise to buy me one after chinese new year.
F480. ♥
i like. i like. i like.
but im still struggling among the colors of the model.

and i finally met up with my favourite girl in rp. (:
just chill around after school and got crazy over my planner.
so lame.
but dammit i like.

wednesday met up with BFFs for gyming session.
i know i look like nun cause i clip up my fringe. -.-
i know right!

and pictures of the family BBQ session (:

i dono why but it seems like i never look at the camera one leh!
ahahahhahahahaha!
mad alr.

im drinking wine right now.
damn nice.
ROFL.

THIS POST DAMN MEANINGLESS RIGHT I KNOW!
heh heh heh.
i wana blog fast fast then carry on my house bunny and i got the movie princess diary!
ahahahhahahahah~

cheerios.

xoxo

2009-01-18T01:38:00.002+08:00

ayeah. i changed my blogskin (:

anyway doing tag from cxindy.

Rules and Regulations:
- Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habit/little known facts about yourself.
- People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 10 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.
- At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.
- No tag back.

i tends to be hyperactive when i am tired
i love my music deafening loud
sometimes i sway to the music in bus alone without knowing it. (arghh)
my hands are cold most of the time even when the sun is shining.
i don't like to walk in the opposite direction as the crowd so sometimes i follow. o.0
if i get threaten, i will make sure i do whatever the person wouldn't want me to.
i ask for opinion before buying stuff but those opinion doesn't affect my decision at all. lol
i have a short will so anyone can persuade me into anything.
i laugh and smile to myself (:
i don't dare to sleep alone.

TEN HAVE YOU EVER

Been caught sneaking out – i dont sneak out, i walk out.-.-
Seen a polar bear – did.
Done something you regret – a lot. a lot.
Bungee jumped – EHH! not in 10 years time.
Eaten food that fell on the floor - always! cause i lazy pick and throw. lmao.
Finished an entire jaw breaker- o.0
Been caught naked – omg. yes.
Wanted an ex bf/gf back – for what purpose?
Wanted to disappear – yes man.

TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER

Smile or eyes – Smile! :D
Light or dark hair – Dark hair.
Hugs or kisses – hughug. x3
Shorter or taller – taller lah!
Intelligence or attraction – if intelligence is like edmund like that then i dont want.
Topman or Zara – topman is love
Funny or serious – Funny and serious. ;p
Older or Younger – older older OLDER!
Outgoing or quiet – I don’t want to date a mute.
Sweet or Bad – im a sucker for bad guys.... but sweet also. i want both can can can CAN?

TEN HAVE YOU

Ever performed in front of a large crowd – Yes. 1st performance i act as a tree -.-
Ever talked on the phone for longer than an hour – always
Ever tried walking on your hands – nabei you
Ever been to a rock concert - nope.
Ever been on a cheerleading team - nope.
Ever been on a dance team - yes.
Ever been on a sports team – yes.
Ever been in a drama play/production - no.
Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz, Escalade, Hummer or Bentley? - hotwheels
Ever been in a rap video? – no.

TAG: 10 PEOPLE

EH I DON WAN DO ALR.
THE TAG FUCKING LONG.

2009-01-14T22:13:00.005+08:00

the world slow down. but my heart beat fast right now.
seems we're bound by the laws of the same routine.
♥♥♥

im getting my damn chio planer tmmr (:
im seriously drained and exhausted now.
and its not difficult to notice that i have been lazy to blog
anyway i would like to make this claim:

i do not blog out every single outing i went to
and only do when i took lot of pictures or when i feel to.
in fact i only blog out 1/4 of my routine?

so stop pestering me to blog about some nonsense outing
cause i don't blog for your entertainment sake.

can can can? tsktsk.

anyway, this week so far had been the worst of the year.
same damn thing took out 90% of my mind and only left 10% of my brain juice on the damn old life. and its not like i have a lot of brain cells to kill in the first place. i know.
(heh just in case anyone out there wana talk back to me.)
seriously mental disorientation.
actually all along its bad just that its worst by 10%.
i can only describe it using mathematics for now.
trust me its not easy.
still need act one cheerful outside

and there is this war thing going on inside me : my will vs my heart.
of course not literally war.
and my heart is on the upper hand right now.
i know it will eventually win but i wanted to try at least. bit by bit.

seriously can die from it man.

and i know i had been finding reason with everything i knew of that particular matter.
and its like i have been cheating myself.
i feel consoled (by myself) on the surface.
but deep down i think i know the possibility.

i hope i can wake up and hope all was but a dream and the damn person didn't exist.
can anyone bring me out of this? im more then willing to.
i will be good you noe. ♥

okay, cannot emo or my heart will win ):!

on a lighter note,
when singsangsung session with yixiang and cxindy over at orchard. ♥
and all the 3 of us had sorethroat. bad.
but all insisted on singing cause we think we sang very nice like birds chirping in the Cinderella story and wanted to let the staff have a taste of the awesome-ness. ♥

see below:
he is my real blood related uncle you know!
20 years old only.
cool or what. (as in the fact not the person yo.)

and out mood kinda follow the songs we sang.
like emo-high-emo-emo-high.
my heart always cannot take it.

and we sing till dono what to ding and sing damn lame songs which name sounds irritating retarded.
and i tell you both of them keep taking pictures a bit irritating.
-.-

dinner at cineleisure. ♥
home. school tmmr!
should i go?
should i should i?
got UT sia.
but sian + lazy + bad mood.
HOW!

can die
can die
can die
can die
can die
can die
can die
can die

omg blog is getting so suicidal
but im thinking so muchhhh
its in my head
its in my head
its in my head
its in my head
its in my head
its still in my head
come out can
come out can

(sounds a bit like the song "zombie")

i think im going mad, madder, maded.

oh and they are my favourite girls/ favourite group in class. ♥
ben, bas, yvonne, ain

(yes cxindy you can scold me for acting cute agn)

argh i think i need alchohol again.
ahahahhahahaaha.
dont scold me lahhhhhhh
i promise will only take a lil bitttttttttt

and i am not suicidal.

xoxo
ling

2009-01-11T16:20:00.004+08:00

open house this year was a blast.
im super lazy to blog bout it so i make it in point forms.

* my booth - static
* made 2312 new friends like wenjie,parry, kelly(?) etc
* was away fro booth 1/2 of the time and go around with jl for gifts from other booth (cheapskate i know!)
* truth and dare and i have a "noob" and "loser" hannah on my hand till now.

THIS POST DAM AWESOME RIGHT!!!!
HAAHHAHAHA.
I KNOW!

2009-01-10T00:52:00.000+08:00

我累了。
真的很累了。

2009-01-08T16:43:00.004+08:00

dramas in life left me discombobulate.
and meanwhile i am also frustrated with myself for not able to ______
right now it directly affects me most.
to me it seems so difficult and inexplicable.
cxindy say pay her instant cash she also wont _______
teach me how eh. i promise to be good. ):

it might be something i would mock at myself when i grow up
but for now it only brings much misery to my life.
and i wish so much that i would overcome this damn thing.
im close to tears yesterday during open house.
its the most unbearable.
but it will only gets better. right?

and i finally submitted my FYP team already.
with FOUR members.
lisa called me in the morning and told me she got hand of prove that you _____
with prove, i dont see why should i believe you again.
i should have known.
damn me for being too dumb to believe. i know i deserve it.

isit so difficult to trust?
i know i trust people easily and i got scolded for that i a lot of times.
but its because i believe no one will do something that brings to no benefits.
but now i know people loves to do things that have no point.
just for fun. entertainent purpose.
无聊到要死.

i think god had forgotten me. ):
disorientated mentally. (happy?)

i hate this part right here

bestfriends

2009-01-04T16:46:00.007+08:00

post a bit long.

i wana watch the sun set. anybody? ♥

i wana go city ALIVE to dance. anybody? ♥

i wana go gay bar. anybody? ♥

i wana hug my friends now. anybody anybody? ♥

anyway, school reopen tomorrow.
):
i miss my classmates but like PBL as a routine makes me so pissed off eh?
RP is so boring.
and having a ex-TP principal as our present principal only makes it worst.
he think he can make things right. dam act cute.
dammit.

anyway for 2009,
the below 3 kids is the first persons i saw. :D

they kinda off the tvee after countdown
and insist of us looking at their super funny performance.
heh. abit cute hor ♥
the bbq at their balcony was great too. me like.

saturdae.
went out with jacyln see yuan ting.
initial plan was to shop for new year clothes.
and we went to pray for 2009 too.
cause were super curious on what will become of us.
thus we did the "shake shake then got wooden stick come out" thing.
first timer. i dam noob i noe.
ahahah.... i didn't get a good outcome though and for jac she didnt even manage to get her "stick"

p/s: i dono what is that thing call sorry. ):

bedtime stories's busky wannabe.

shopping = satisfying when you buy a bag full of stuffs. ♥
happily, we hop to my uncle house for bbq (ok we took mrt)
my coursin is having his birthday party over there.
havent got the pictures yet (:

had fun meeting up with my cousins and all.
played a lot.
my family was too big tht jacyln give up on trying to rmb them.
noob dao yao si.
uncle brought us home in his lorry and jac got very excited of her first ride.
dam lame. then we become ridiculous and started to waved at anybody we found on the streets and buses.
HAHAHAHAAHAAA.
yes i know!.

wanted to go over choomin house but its too late for last bus.
thus hang around at mac.

aft that, we hold hands and practically hop singing "lalala~" to 7-11 for alchohol
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA.
got uncle shocked sia! cause dam loud.
yes i am dam embarrassed!
homed (:

and todae early in the morning i received a letter from jacyln see yuan ting in my mailbox.
damn random i know.
but very sweet you know.
she roughly apologise for bads she done,
fun we had and how long we know each other
a long letter
and her resolution:
our friendship last longer.
me like ♥

and jacyln i am not shock by compared to other things u done,
the shock factor is oly 1/5.

i bet she send one to choomin too.
so i gonna make my letter more high tech by typing in my blog.
(dnt ned waste time and stamp lol)
here you go.

(other readers cfm will be bored. dnt read ok ♥)

dedicated to jacyln and choomin. ♥

you people are the longest friendships i had and the bestest too.
this year marks the 8th year and i wanted to tell you how much i love you babies.
both of you are the first to come to mind when i had a bad day.
cause i know you guys will definitely makes me a happier person.

i like the way we always meet up almost once every 2 weeks and how you people make every dam single outing so laughable till i tears.
and how we always do embarrassed things that always make people shock and often get scolded by the public. lmao.
and even staying at choomin house makes the house too noisy for her mum to sleep.
and how you girls and felicia came my house to suprise me on my birthday and screammmm when the neighbour dog barks. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

but we are young and fun! so we must do it more often. :D
damn the public.

and i know i damn attitude to you girls for the pass 2 or 3 months cause was pretty bad mood.
but you people didn't give up on me and even meet me in school and cheer me up. ♥

people comes in and out of our lives and left only memories.
but im glad we stay and i hope it is for eternity.

and remember our plan for jacyln, choomin, yingjie,yeapjun,felicia,michelle and my birthday!
AHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAAH

our resolution: be happy yo!
and forget about someone's saxophone yo!
AHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

xoxo
ling

p/s: i decided to bring the letter to school for a week cos i like to write it!!!
ahahhahahahahha

2009-01-02T22:33:00.001+08:00

MEGAN FOX.
♥♥♥
she is so fucking awesome!
absolutely love.
i am straight but i like hot girls leh.

but i know choomin hate this picture cause she think its obscene.
hahahahahaa! ♥ noob.

anyway,
first day of 2009.
spend with sheraton and edmund. ♥
had game of badminton over at tampines sports hall.
me love! ♥
lets' do it often aye!
cleaned up and went movie over at tampines mall.
jl insisted on paying his ticket and makes me feel so guilty. ):
cause i promised to let it be my treat. :/
bedtime stories is AWESOMEEE...

being super 夸张, all of us except for the 正义 edmund sneaked mac into the cinema.
and looking at how jl dip his fries into his curry sauce and munch on is burger
really fascinates me.

movie was funny.
everyone laughed while michelle laughed super loudly and her ultra slaughters
embraced the whole of cinema.
i promise.
cause she 顺便 laugh at those non funny ones.
lol.

afterwhich, we walked in a speed of 50km/hr to find any tvee.
cause mich and jl wanted to watch nonya.
hardcore fan -.-
and we reach just nice for the opening song.
self entertaining for me and edmund.
bought supper.
bus home.

its raining gunballs!

resolution: have a happy 2009 (:

xoxo.
ling

2008-12-31T18:11:00.004+08:00

2009 in around 5 hours time. ♥
a quick one before i go to house party for countdown.
(i very lazy i want stay at home! )

anyway, year 2008 wasn't really a fruitful year for me.
but i still gona thanks those who make life easier for me.
i can't imagine what i will be without friends around me.
but all in all, it will still be the same old people as i find old friends more comfortable to be with. haha. unsociable i know.
on top are the people that me ♥

if ur nt there...

too bad for you. :o

but my pictures not with me lmao and below are the recents i manage to get.

the longest and best friendship i had. ♥
me loves bestfriends.

part of sheraton.
bestfriends in school. ♥

my bimbo moments partner. x3
lynnette yeo xin yi!

and specially thanks to those that had been with me all along. ♥
jacyln, choomin, lynnette, junliang, michelle, cxindy, yixiang
sheraton, penguin and agies. ♥

lmao. the post damn lame i know.

but me ♥♥♥♥ you ppl.
cheerios ♥
and happy new year

2008-12-30T22:49:00.002+08:00

i hope everything will pass together with 2008.

every damn thing is given me problem.
and now even friends add on to my burden.

i only have one brain.
one brain that contains 10000 things.
sometimes cant even sleep.
even if i do, i dreamt of this damn life.
can die? can die.

i am not okay im just trying to make it seems easy.
i don't need any one of you people reading this to help me.
just don't add on.
i will clear my life up myself.

and i dont want hear secrets also!
my heart cannot take it.

2008-12-26T17:42:00.005+08:00

merry christmas to all. ♥
recently had been busy and Christmas and eve had been ultimate.
spent eve and day with beloved sheraton and met cxindy for dinner after that.
but lazy trace back lazy blog.
HAAHHAHAHAHAAAHA
buai!

oh first second of christmas i am cooking chicken yo!
heh. ♥

anyway pictures.

people like to take pictures of me while looking at menu.
-.-

cxindy favourite picture.

oh and im thinking of getting this diary 09.
so pretty so awesome.
but its 27 bucks.
sld i sld i?

2008-12-20T19:57:00.003+08:00

i just had a nightmare
not like its scary but its something that make my heart stop as its like the most precious thing in my current life, i swear.
if that really happen i see no point of doing anything again.
i hope it wont. ):
they say what you think will reflect on what you dream.
im so scared ):

and im sick after the trip of science centre.
i think i talk too much :o
gona get better before next week.
or else it will take away 1/2 of the fun. ):

and i finally gotta watch twilight already.
the movie was awesome.
Robert Pattinson is the sex.
but elaine is being so irritating in insisting Robert Pattinson is hers.
lame
lame
lame
lame
lame
so lame that she need to goes to handicap toliet!
:O

ok back to my life. ):

2008-12-18T23:11:00.005+08:00

holiday ♥ wicked fun

cheerios people. ♥
everyone had been busy catching up with what they miss out in life.
and so am i trying to catch up with people i neglect.
and yet neglect people whom i mix ard in school.
life's a joke.
you just can't make both sides happy.
but come up its holiday yo.
so i think i will stfu till ltrz.

aniway, gonna blog about my tue, wed, thurs provided i have the will to.
though i assume i most prob gona stop halfway and let the pictures tok for themselves.
but at least i cleared the pictures and let you people read to pass time.
be grateful.

tuesday ♥
when over to cm's to put our stuffs for the stayover.
and the first thing that happen is that me and jacyln miss the stop.
cause we are busy talking on the bus till cm called and say she saw us miss the bus stop.
HAHAHAHHAHA!
when dragon gate for dim sum buffet yo!

ordered like there's no tmmr.
and cm even exercise on the spot to digest her food.
talk about anything on earth from clown to saxaphone.
and cm really dam embarrassed by so many things like such:

cm: hey i ordered curry buns isit ready yet?
waiter: eh let me see ur recipt, you ordered at 1.10.
cm: but now 1.15 alr!

-.-
and the restaurat pack sia -.-

eat till stomach exploded (nearly)
walk ard vivo and took pictures (:

and i finally took picture in the santa's (fill in the blank)
though there is a do not enter sign and we got chased out by the security.
:o
arcaded

ghoby ghaut next stop. (:
for the movie "the day the earth stood still"
mavellous. ♥
chilled and videod and throw face till night time.
and went over to cm's and the girls exchange dance moves.
night time was the best.
they make me laugh till tear like mad.
long since i laugh that hard.
cm was really tired and tiring to sleep but they didnt allow her to.
with shaking her and ask if she was still awake with the interval of 2 min.
ROFL.
and from 12-4 she tried to sleep but....
and mutiple body slams yo ♥♥♥
and finally she gives up and story telling or us while me and jac sleeps!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

wednesday. ♥
came back from choomin's house in the morning.
and i am dead tired still due to the fact that i didnt sleep much.
sleep the afternoon away and met cxindy and adeline over at CQ at night.

chill around till 11 and went butter factory.
crowd was good.
music was A for awesome. ♥
hit the dance floor till around 1+

met eugene and went attica.
ang mos yo!
they are more daring and open towards stuff and make it more happening.
with invites to dance, blowing kisses, grabbing you to me etc.
crowd wasn't tht good though.

and i appeal to ah neh sia.
joke.
got phobia alr.

till dawn.
breakfast.
home.
dead.

laterz

2008-12-14T20:46:00.003+08:00

sometimes, girls can get so silly.
they do things that will not bring benefits to them.
instead they created their own future harms.
cause, they chose to ~~lie to themselves~~ believe the almost
impossible.

i like this phrase fro wendy's blog:

Remember, it takes time,
Rome wasn't built in a day...
cause life like that....

HOLIDAY YO!

although its only 3 pathetic weeks
but hey thats something i look forward to since 7 weeks ago?
in fact, this year i am free from school already!
though its mid december alr i know.
and and and christmas is coming~♥
cheerios. (:

love christmas me. ♥

aniwae pictures on thursdae.
penguins came woodlands find me aft school.

and cm cut bangs.
and since the uncle sae 3.80 only.
i also act cute go cute -.-
and my extented hair look only longer than my real hair a bit.
cause i sae i wan trim.
gua gua~ ):

i need to be home at least 2 days per week.
to slack at home and rest from the rest of the world.

16: buffet and stayover at cm's with jac
17: cm's and donate blood
18: kbox with xm&co
19: science center wif sheraton
20: slack
21: slack
22: class outing
23: badminton wif sheraton
24: bbq countdown sheraton
25: meet up with cxindy

this is just a reminder to myself cause im not good with dates.
till then, cheers.

2008-12-11T00:03:00.006+08:00

badminton with BFFs ♥

yea. badmintonnn yo!
was really in the mood thus call them up for a game. (:
cause jacyln see keep provoking me with this:
"ehh i think you grow fatter. very fat sia"

-.-
very irritating.

and i never grow fat loh.
everyweek say same thing to me want make me pek cek only...
-.-
but i fall for it every single time.

anyway, we were late by 10 min and no court for us till an hour ltr):
so went cafe for light lunch since i woke up 15min before meeting time.
the video below kinda lame.
cause choomin bought new phone so was showing off.

and she deleted the video we took when she danced in the cafe.
and after we took picture she will goes
"wait let me edit the pic with my new phone."

sibeh haolian.

exercise yo!
2 hr straight and i almost died.
yes lets badminton more.
then can 减肥减肥
i like ♥

i went home to bath before meeting them again.
cause very sticky i dont like ):
dinnnnnnner (:

and went library.
wanna borrow books for the holidae.
went kids session and chase out by librarians for being too loud.
she is just jealous we lead a happier life loh ZZZZZ
i also got scolded 有毛病by china kid.
BOOOOO~

i like this book.
got vampire. like twilight.
i wanna watch twilight plueaseeeee!!

they are my besties since primary school (:

and this girl goes
"OMG IM SO PRETTY"
after taking this picture.
-.-

CHRISTMAS TREEEEEEEE.
and another librarian chase us out again.
cause no photo taking and we took this when he counter is like 2m away.
morons.
supppppper.
home.(:

tmmr they gona come my school find me aft lessons.

some horoscope thing i cope from xinrou blog.
cause like super true sia.
i got 3 heart for daring haha so cool.
and too emotional and independent is badd ):
Pisces are known for their sensitive and caring nature. They are the type of people who will put their friends and family before themselves. These are some of the most selfless people you can find. People under the Fish sign are quite often blessed with rich imagination and creativity.

Many of Pisces individuals think from their hearts and not their heads. However such an emotional logic allows them to have a good intuition and usually they can see through people and understand others better than the rest of us can. One of Pisces’ greatness weaknesses is that they can be quite naïve and unstable with opinions. This means that someone with bad intentions can easily trick a Piscean (of course not every Piscean is so easily tricked). On the social frontier Fish are very easy going and can adapt to any atmosphere and find themselves good friends in any environment. Pisceans are very emotional however they do not always show all their feelings. They like to keep a thin air of mystery around themselves.

People under this zodiac are usually very artistic. Most often they are more comfortable working alone rather than in a team, because this way they can do the work in their own creative way. They are not overly ambitious and do not care about being at the top. All they want is some recognition and acceptance.

Overall these are very compassionate and easygoing people, they are quite dreamy and not very practical or rational. They are very faithful and their love is usually limitless.

http://www.mylovecal.com/

2008-12-09T01:46:00.004+08:00

i knew this girl.

when she had done everything you could
and gives in 100% of her mind and soul
everything seems to only resolves around one person.
sometimes she get so tired of everything.
but most of the times she can just break down.

during day time, she can get pass it without anyone noticing.
but when the night comes and she is alone,
she really can't take it.
she drinks and she cry. almost everyday
she knows its bad for her and its stupid yet she doesn't know what else to do.

she get contented with just any simple gesture by someone.
she can fly to heaven.
but most of the time, its just a temporary peace of heaven.
the next day, she will fall all the way to hell.
can only remain there and hope someone could take her away.

all this while she hadn't give up all her hope.
but again and again hope betray the trust of her.
she wanted to be strong and stronger.
but every time when she couldn't take it,
it only shows how weak and a loser she is.
she always think how death can solve everything.
not like she will do any harm to herself.
but the thought of a getaway is really tempting.
but rest assure she wont try it

maybe she would want a getaway every night
to get her mind off some stuffs.
maybe she could stay over at friends' so that she wont be alone to think at night.
its not easy and she had been trying since a year ago.
never did she succeed.
nor did she become stronger.

she doesn't know whether to attend school tmr.
doesn't feel like it yet doesn't wana stay home alone.

today, its the same as other night.

and happy birthday cindy and diniy.

2008-12-07T22:43:00.007+08:00

its a dam cold night. trying to figure out this life.
im holding on forever. ~♫♫♫

first of all,
happy birthday andy!
you are the best facil i had in this obnoxious damn school. ♥
i think he is every material science students first choice facil (except cxindy)
and he is the one that ask me to email him what i read up on the lessons i missed.-.-
like ah ma liddat.

anyway, company cindy go photoshooting for her competition.
and i have to wake up at 9am.
-.-
since dono how many months ago i hadn't been directly under the morning/afternoon sunlight.
and i can barely open my eyes.
im a vampire in disguise.
vampire! i wan watch twilight!

the camera man oso so fierce ):
dont allow me to go in. so i have to sit outside to wait for idolt to finish her shots.
2 sets somemore:
GOWN
(i think she look like the greek god with 2 more leaf on the head)

and
FORMAL

amk hub and lunch (:

ahhahaah i like this picture. she look so irritating lol.

play ground. (:
and shop around for my vest but no avail sad-ed!

aniway, i wana watch so many movies!!
like so many nice movies coming out.
anyone anyone?

ayea im watching this tmmr (:

ANYONE NOE WHERE TO GET KINDER SUPRISE?

THOSE GOT TOY INSIDE DE.

I CANNOT FIND AND I WANT IT BADLY ):

2008-12-05T21:39:00.002+08:00

fyp is already giving me a lot of trouble.
eloise ask if its okae if she join another group since
there will still be a 4 people group after she left.
speechless.
i made it a point in the first place that i only accept people who ain't dilly dally and confirm that the group will be final choice.
i don't accept any pending members.
she confirmed with me so i dont see this coming.
she ain't close with me but i upon hearing ain telling me that point of time that she is looking for a team and the fact that she gives her best to work, she is recuited to the team.
thus i don't see why she have to do this last min.
maybe all along she uses us as a back up team or sth.
so much of a team member.

i didn't stop her though.
cause so what if i did?
if it can happen once, it can happen twice and thrice.
due to irresponsibility.
im not angry, i just dont see it coming.
just not a people-person.

anyway, might need another member or maybe we would just remain as 4.
wanted to ask joel since he looking for team but.....
so ya. (:

ling.
trying to make up this life.

11.49

2008-12-04T23:33:00.004+08:00

im ambiguous on when im gonna date this post.
and im really tired and am not going to track back one by one.
so yea, movie with lynnette at vivo someday.

see see see the super tremendous tree!

its hollow!
and the stt on top of the tree is the same as my pet society home tree! ♥

so awesome! (:

anyway went to bought the tickets for wild child before settling at thai express for dinner, cause don't have hong kong cafe. ):

but its food. so its still nice.
and thai express served surprisingly pleasant food.
awesomeness x 10 ! ♥♥♥

look at the keo teow below. (i think i spell wrongly)

THIS IS HEN HAO CHI YOU KNOW!

like ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ kind of hao chi.
to think that we initially thought its stupid to go thai express eat hawker food.
and after that we went (0.0)!!

went balcony after that to chill before the movie starts.
super nonsense cause it rains eventually and we went daiso.

and rain stop super fast. -.-

bitch miie lubbx euus wors.
:O

movied.
and wild child is so super niceeee.
i think it even better then house bunny!
and the male lead like so cute sia.
make my heart goes thump. ♥

i like. so nice so nice so nice! ♥♥♥

went to buy supper after movie and wait for jasmin to end work before chilling at balcony again.

no life i know

its a peaceful night.

2008-12-04T00:03:00.002+08:00

guess who we used to secretly dislike in my previous class?

LMAO!
found this at fiza facebook.
i know mean la but dam LOL

2008-11-29T22:47:00.008+08:00

cramps. ):
i wanna dig out my uterus and display at your doorstep.-.-

aniwae, it had been a super chaotic week.
went starbucks with 麻瓜 cxindy to replenish energy.
but while i am drinking my ice moca, she suddenly uses her 九阴白骨抓 on me!
luckily i 内功深厚 and faster uses 蜻蜓水上漂 to get away.

太小看我了！

“哈哈哈..."

i realised she is the legendary 千年老妖怪 in disguise from her old looking face.
she had 久仰 my 大名 thus come RP find me!
i uses my 降龙十八掌 on her.
due to my 内功 too 深厚, she died.
千年老妖怪 tak boleh!

sia la, too much tv alr. -.-

anyway post will be so messy cause i forget when is the exact day pictures are taken!

had been a busy week hanging out with besties.
had been 20000 years before i finally met with mehmeh to go together.
super miss the agies please~

an we saw this bangala with super stylo extension
that keep us ROFLOL all the way home.
ONE FUCKING STRAND ONLY!
and so out of place!
he think he style sia! i think his mother also BTH!heng heng met him on the way to school the next day.
he act one stranger sit beside me then suddenly:
"aiya i don wan waste battery share la"
then he take out this connector thing and action action plung into my mp3.
and im like 0.0
nabei show off new gadget only.

and that is elaine Q-ing for her cotton candy which we thought is free.
btw she ran away upon hearing it cost 1.50.
SINGAPOREAN! :O

next is picture of thursdae and fridae with 麻瓜 before she died.

CHRISTMAS MOOOOOOOOOD ALR!

蛤蟆功!

chilled at starbucks aft school and chat an started drawing
like the way we used to draw cartoons when we are kindergarden...
very typical.

TODAY!

met jacyln for job hunting.
i need a job i need the money i need to spend.
job hunting is very tiring. ):
lazy to blog.

anyway catching wild cild with lynnette tmmr. <3>

next week is gonna be another chaotic week.
with 3 UTs which doesn't even leave any breathing space for the students.
tuesdae movie with class. ayea!its difficult and its not like i getting over things so easily.
im just trying to make it seems easy.
im just trying to make everything seems ok.
im just trying to make myself seems happy and loud.
someone told me that im trying to 逃避.
but i believe after some time it will become 逃避-ed. (:

someone told me this:
no matter how hard things may seems,
how much you feel your heart suffocating,
i much you cry to yourself at night,
everything will be over someday. (:

and i believe tht day will come eventually.

i hope it rains tonight. (:

2008-11-25T18:25:00.002+08:00

i dono what to do.
i had done everything.

imalloutofloveimsolostwithoutyou

2008-11-23T23:38:00.006+08:00

had been long since a proper update.
anyway school had been fun♥ with silly classmates which never fails to make me laugh.
and due to my stupidity, i had owe this idolt below 4 bubbleteas.
and jonathan 6 cups. (: bravo.
and had been a laughing stock for them which is not going to last long as i am so going to win them back before school holiday.

they will be crying to me then.

but thinking of JL who loses 50bucks in blackjack,
life is still worth living for (:

met up with jac after friday lesson.
finally after her A lvl which she ownself predict that she would be doing that great. play somemore lah. (:
subway-ed and shopping-ed and chill at library.

AND BEWARE OF MY DARK CIRCLE AS BIG AS THE SIZE OF A ULTIMATE FISHBALL!

kids nowaday dam noob. never see laptop before.
and this super curious kid kinda carry her chair and sit beside me.
and look into my screen. sia la where is my privacy.
then starting sit far far away...
after i play cartoon,
pattern all come out...
sit on floor move closer and closer

THEN BECOME HER LAPTOP WOR!
but she still dont dare to talk to us. ):her sister come pull her away but to no avail. :D
then after she found another alternative, she ps my laptop at corner.
and start playing with my mp3.
but still, she dont dare to tok to us.):

we take lotsa her pictures secretly then let her found out.
and she start using handphone take pictures.
TMD ke ai...
but she take pictures like stick the handphone to ur face wor.
make face super fat.

and i also dono why am i posing them up.
to make it seems like a long post.

while she busy with mp3, we faster faster pack out lappy cause we fucking wants to leave.
cause initially we thought choomin meeting us for supper.

and she took my bling!
T.T
i dont dare to reject her.
stupid i noe.

SHE THINK SHE CUTE LEH!
but really cute sia.

THERE! TELL YOU HER

LAPTOP LE WHAT!

anyway, last weekend was spend at JL's family chalet.
kinda bored at first since edund and jl were my only company but it only get better.
more people came and it become playground for kids.

madacasga-ed , gamed , drink-ed.
and sleep in the morning.
i very lazy typed. -.-

all in all, i had fun (:
and i love my friends.
next chalet at jabez birthday okok!
CHEERS.
and i end with a duper cute picture of javier.
aka JL's sister's friend's son.
ahahha! dam far i know!
xoxo

2008-11-21T02:56:00.001+08:00

insecure. very very insecure.
insecure. very very insecure.
insecure. very very insecure.
insecure. very very insecure.
insecure. very very insecure.
insecure. very very insecure.

1st Lady - baby i love u - 1st lady

listen to this song... kinda old but hen nice.

* Baby I love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we make can never be erased
And i promise you that you will never be replaced *

* I love you,
Yes i do.
Ill be with you as long as you want me to,
Until the end of time.
From the day i met you i knew we'd be together.
And now i know i want to be with you forever, i want to marry you and i want to have
your kids.
Thinking can never compare to the feeling of your kisses. *

cheers. (:
the world is sad for someone.
and i have school tmr >(

2008-11-16T17:28:00.002+08:00

friendster is screwed up and deleted like 1100 of my friends.
lol? friendster a lot pattern one.
but nevermind cause i not quite bothered still...
facebook like better? heh... got pets society somemore.
addictive >(

just came back from chalet.
shall blog bout it soon.

till then. (:

2008-11-14T10:49:00.002+08:00

RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

RULE #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

ELAINE TAGGED ME tsk!

1. Do you have secrets?
lol? stupid question. i say no you also wont believe

2. Would you fall in love with a boy/girl younger than you?
don't think so. like childish? i like mannnn

3. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
till i met anyone that caught my eye and promise me lots of love

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
i will laugh to myself for a month. and i will spend it like mad on people i love and maybe donate a little and my life will be rainbow and candies. <3

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
depend on who is my bestfriend cause i happen to have a lot.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
love someone that love you back double.

7. Give one reason why you love your significant other.
find me my significant other first.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
cry and cry and forgot and continue.

9. What is the first thing you want to do when you're legal?
backpack. work work save save move out = independent!

10. What would you do if your significant other cheats on you?
i will swear and curse and forgive after a month. dunno lah

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
a 28 year old tan wei ling

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
BFFs and family.

13. How many times your heart has been broken?
once or twice

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
married but poor. and with kids. <3

15. What is your favourite colour?
red,pink,black like you even care. -.-

16. If you're attached but you feel as if you like someone else, what would you do?
depend on who i love more?

17. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
i forgive easily but i will never forget. loser i noe. -.-

18. What do you want to tell the someone you like?
not sharing

19. If there is a choice between lover and friends, which will you choose?
lover. he's the one i gonna spend my life with.

20. Do you believe that there's "True Love"?
yep. only if both party agree to give in.

5 people to do this survey:
cxindy, lynnette, michelle, jasmin, choomin